Exhaustion.

FINALLY! Back home to my lovely bed. Oh bed, be mine forever please. Exhaustion kills. mentally and physically drained. The juices from my brain has been squeezed out dried. Company Law paper kills. Next up, Land law. Why oh Why? I'm about to collapse. On the bed. 

Before I fall flat on my face onto the bed, here is a little something that I want to share with you. A little poem from one of my favourite poets, Elizabeth Barrett Browning. 

Sonnet 14- If Thou must Love Me, let it be for nought. 

If thou must love me, let it be for nought

Except for love's sake only. Do not say

'I love her for her smile—her look—her way

Of speaking gently,—for a trick of thought

That falls in well with mine, and certes brought

A sense of pleasant ease on such a day'—

For these things in themselves, Beloved, may

Be changed, or change for thee,—and love, so wrought,

May be unwrought so. Neither love me for

Thine own dear pity's wiping my cheeks dry,—

A creature might forget to weep, who bore

Thy comfort long, and lose thy love thereby!

But love me for love's sake, that evermore

Thou mayst love on, through love's eternity.

By just reading it, it calms me down. I find the language and the way of writing plus her ability to express herself so fascinating and intriguing. She seem so polite and delicate and lady-like. Why can't our generation nowadays be like that? It is not that I am against those rapping musics and the way people speak nowadays and the way they go 'yaw wassup'. How did we go from 'Howdy?' to 'yaw wassup"?  Whatever happened to the beauty of profundity? 

I am starting to blabber again. 

Okay, in need of some serious sleep. 

Bye and Goodnight.

BABABANANNA

I think the exam stress is getting onto me. Its making me so cranky. What I wanna do now is just to punch someone in the face or throw a vase or shout at walls and trees or or or OR WHATEVER. URGH!

Oh goddamnit my annoyance level just increased about like a 110%.
BANABANNANDKADKLJKJKL!!!! You know what, screw everything, I am going to bed now. GOODNIGHT!

Pre/Post Exam STRESS!

I am procrastinating so much, it isn't funny anymore. URGH frust frust frsut frustration! I have so mush to revise to the point I feel "Hey why not just start cleaning your room or take a nap or watch some Youtube videos or just start blogging?" So I ended up here. AGAIN. 

"Where did your heart go missing" by Rooney is just so addictive and nostalgic. Brought back some memories. Haiz. Emofied. Again. If you guys have not heard this song, please click onto the link below and LISTEN, I repeat, LISTEN. 

"Where Did Your Heart Go Missing?"

"I'm waiting, waiting for nothing
You're leaving, leaving me hanging

When did your heart go missing?

When did your heart go missing?

I treat you like a princess

But your life is just one big mess

When did your heart go missing?

When did your heart go missing?"

*Music blazing on-replay in the background* 

*dances and sings crazily*

*falls*

*laugh*

*stares*

*cries*

*open Company Law book*

*dies*

BYE. 

The McFlurry Spoon Design Quandary

Today, as I was browsing through Facebook, I came across this interesting article posted in 

http://colinseymour.co.uk/mcflurry-spoon-design-quandary where one the writer's colleague posted an interesting question to them as he waved a McDonald's McFlurry spoon to them: Why is the spoon designed like it is?

If you guys are observant enough, you will noticed that on one end of the McFlurry spoon, it is designed in a shaped bit which you'd expect but it's the handle that puzzled us. It's hollow and square with a funny clip that looks like the clip from a pen. Now the spoon end is easy enough to work out why it's been designed as such: it's the get the ice-cream into your ice-cream hole, but how do your explain the odd handle?

Several possible suggestions came up including, to ease packing, save on plastic, to strengthen the spoon for those fatties who can't wait for the ice-cream to soften a bit and even as a consequence of the injection moulding process.

We were all wrong. A quick search on the Internet (where else) revealed the reason for the handle design:

The McFlurry Spoon is designed with a hollow, 12.5 cm long, 1.5 cm wide square handle made of translucent, heavy-gauge (1 mm thick) plastic. There is no straw functionality in the US version of the utensil, the handle is made hollow only to save material and to allow it to be mounted on the mixer. At the end of the handle is a clip, which attaches onto the rotating axl of the blending machine. The McFlurry-maker engages the mixer while holding the cup, and the spoon acts as a beater, blending the candy pieces into the ice cream. The domed lid ensures none of the McFlurry escapes, and using a disposable mixing utensil means less equipment needs to be washed by the crew at the end of the night.

Of course. Those brilliant geniuses. They had it all figured out. Thinking out of the box much?  

One thing for sure, the McFlurry spoon does not double as a straw! At least it's not supposed to. Though the hallow spoon looks like an uncomfortable, unwieldy straw, it is actually part of an ingenious design known as the "Flurry Spoon Agitator"

okay got to go study for my upcoming Company Law paper which is in two days time!!!!! *dies*

Anyway, Happy Mid-Autumn Festival to all! For those of you who do not have  a clue what is this festival's all about, please, do your research. Nah, kidding. As I am in a very generous mood for knowledge sharing today.. 

Mid-Autumn Festival falls on the 15th day of every 8th month according to the Chinese Lunar calendar, the Mid-Autumn Festival is the second grandest festival after the spring Festival. It takes its name from the fact that it is always celebrated in the middle of the autumn season. the day is also known as the Moon Cake Festival, as at that time of the year the moon is at its roundest and brightest. 

Mid-Autumn Festival is an inherited custom of moon sacrificial ceremonies. The ancient Chinese observed that the movement of the moon has a close relationship with the changes of the season and agricultural production. Hence, to express their thanks and gratitude to the moon and to celebrate the harvest, they offered a sacrifice to the moon on autumn days. 

So if you are scratching your butt, wondering why the moon is all round and shining brightly up there for these past few days, here's your answer (well not really much of a scientific factual truth, but oh well), its the MOON CAKE FESTIVAL MONTH BABY! My advise to you, get out there and go grab some moon cake for yourself. Cheers :)

Ariana Grande - Almost Is Never Enough ft. Nathan Sykes

"Almost is Never Enough"

I'd like to say we gave it a try
I'd like to blame it all on life
Maybe we just weren't right, but that's a lie, that's a lie

And we can deny it as much as we want
But in time our feelings will show

'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
The truth is everyone knows

Almost, almost is never enough
So close to being in love
If I would have known that you wanted me
The way I wanted you
Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart
But right here in each others arms

Here we almost, we almost knew what love was
But almost is never enough

If I could change the world overnight
There'd be no such thing as goodbye
You'll be standing right where you were
And we'd get the chance we deserve

Try to deny it as much as you want
But in time our feelings will show

'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
The truth is everyone knows

Almost, almost is never enough (is never enough, babe)
We were so close to being in love (so close)
If I would have known that you wanted me the way I wanted you, babe
Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart
But right here in each others arms

Here we almost, we almost knew what love was
But almost is never enough

Relation-SHITS.

Hi peeps, I know its been a while since I last blog. its been a very hectic semester indeed. and plus all those crazy, bullshit, unnecessary dramas and stress that I put myself into lately. But now that I got it out of my system (at least I think I had), Hopefully I will be able to put my whole 'divine' attention and dedication into studying and also my beloved Law Society. Well, as boring as it may sound, I have too. Part and parcel of a being a student I guess. yawnnn. So many things had happened in the past few days. I don't even know where to begin.  

You know that moment when you are too afraid to be happy because whenever you get too happy, gravity just knocks you back down and pull you straight into the core of the earth and then you realised, hey, everything is just not going to be okay anymore. One moment you feel like you almost reach heaven, and then God decides to slam his mysterious plans at you, and BOOM, down you go again, to being dreadful and full of misery and pathetic. I can't remember the last time I was being happy. They say happiness of to be created, not seek. really? 

But then again, who am I to point fingers. I blame myself entirely, because I am an idiot, who does not learnt from my past and who trusts easily and falls for words instead of actions. I realised that anger makes people speak the truth, I guess I had to do what I did that night to get the truth out from his own mouth, and true enough, instantly I had it. The hard, cold truth. Don't you know, its all about the game plan baby. Two can play the game. As evil-sadistic-spawned-bitch-from-hell as I may sound, I had to do what I had to do. I admit that it was not easy hearing those hurtful words (I cried my heart out, mind you), but then again, I have no one to blame but myself.

Anyhow, I am glad that it is now over. You see, I hate all these mushy, emotional, lovey-dopey sickening romance or whatever you call it. It makes me sick. Emotions makes you weak! Why would anyone want to be involved in something that makes you weak and when it comes, it affects you, it screws you up and tumbles your world apart and makes you stupid and clingy and attached. So yeah, I don't mind growing old with nine cats. 

In  River Piedra I Sat Down and Wep by Paulo Coelho (my all time favourite author), he wrote, 

“I've been in love before, it's like a narcotic. At first it brings the euphoria of complete surrender. The next day you want more. You're not addicted yet, but you like the sensation, and you think you can still control things.You think about the person you love for two minutes then forget them for three hours. But then you get used to that person, and you begin to be completely dependent on them. Now you think about him for three hours and forget him for two minutes. If he's not there, you feel like an addict who can't get a fix. And just as addicts steal and humiliate themselves to get what they need, you're willing to do anything for love." 

Now, why would anyone wants to put themselves in that position? Is it not tiring and stupid and burdensome and STUPID? 

Some of you might criticised me for saying this, but hey, every woman to her own thoughts ya. So please save the comments and criticism to yourself. Thanks! 

My books are calling me now. Got to go read them all. LOL. Till then, adios and see you soon.

Cheers! 

“We don't always choose the best solution but we carry on regardless, trying to remain upright and decent in order to do honor not to the walls or the doors or the windows but to the empty space inside, the space where we worship and venerate what is dearest and most important to us.” 

Decisions.

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about life. what am I doing actually? Am I doing the correct thing? Am I making the correct decision? What do I want actually? These questions, these doubts, why do I have them? What is it that is stopping me from doing what I truly want, from making the decision that I will be happy with? Deep down, while I was asking myself that, I figured out the answer. Fear. That is what is stopping me. Peer pressure, its making me do things what the society wants me to do and not what i want. I guess I got caught in the trends of the society that I lost myself in trying to satisfy everyone, but myself. That is indeed a sad fact. For these whole week, I have been a very indecisive person. But then, again, when I come to think about it, indecisiveness has been one of my weakness. I have always questions my decisions and have doubts about it. What if I made the wrong decisions? What if I regret my path that I have chosen? What if what if what if? 

But what if the decision that I took was the right one? Who knows what it might have in store for me. It might be good or it might just be as bad. Have you ever made a decision that you certainly sure about then it only turns out to be a major disappointment to you? Have your decisions turned out to be total failure, disruption and disappointment instead of the opposite? 

But then again, maybe it did not matter whether the decision is a bad or a good one, maybe it does not matter whether we will regret that decision or be glad about it. Maybe what matters is the fact that we actually took the first step to make that decision and whether we are happy or sad with the outcome, at least we never cease to learn something new, to gain a new experience, to venture into something new. And maybe that kinda experience is the one that will build us up and make us stronger as an individual in the process. 

 

I am always full of doubts and fear. Too many what ifs, too many doubts, too much questioning. I think its time for me to be decisive. I have to know what is it that i really want right? 

So goodnight world, I have some important decisions to make tomorrow and I have to set some things right again. But I promise to keep you updated about those decisions that I took. Because I believe that I still have a lot more to learn, a lot more challenges to face and although, at times I may feel afraid and be full of doubts, I promise to set those negativity aside and focus on the positivity. And yes, it is not easy, I know, but then again, neither is it impossible to do. I pray that God will give me the strength and courage to face whatever it is that will come on my way.